Name: Prayer for John List
Duration: P00H03M46S
Description: CW for mass familial murder by father

Prayer for John List

from Hellgirl's Hymnal by DEEP FEMME

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You fought and fled
I think I know why
On the inside you felt nearly dead
You would rather survive
Did you talk to god before you did it
What did they say
Did you ask forgiveness
Did they beg you to stop or to stay

And the DJs play their dirges as their souls went up to heaven
Was it regret or relief in your heart as you knelt and prayed over them
Shrouded in old sleeping bags left to rot in that cold house
Did you think about how they bloated and sagged or did you just block it out

Before you left you said you were going on vacation
Isn't that funny a vacation from what from the dead bodies in the ballroom
Dead bodies in the ballroom and your neat cursive script spellt out exactly exactly what you did
But when they caught you you said no that's not me
I'm someone else I swear check with the office of social security

And the DJs play their dirges as their souls went up to heaven
Was it regret or relief in your heart as you knelt and prayed over them
Shrouded in old sleeping bags left to rot in that cold house
Did you think about how they bloated and sagged or did you just block it out

Was it true belief
Was it just a habit
Were you just trapped and scared mimicking parents' patterns
Do you still hear god's voice did you ever even listen
What did you tell you students about Job and about Jonah in the ocean

18 years of freedom for you to turn yourself in
But I wasn't surprised when they said they had to go looking
If I could I'd tell you there's more love in god's heart than anyone can understand
I hope at least that they obsolve you I don't think anyone else can

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from Hellgirl's Hymnal, released July 26, 2019

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